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With my mind I invoke demons

With my mind I invoke demons
When I call upon desire.

Ecstatic they fulfill their existence
Flooding into the valley of my mind.

The flood resides to reveal water damage.

In mindfulness it dries, yet –
Straggling thoughts like fish
Flap about on the land –
Crying for another flood to sustain them.

Starving leaches
Crying for more blood.

Mercilessly, the remnants of desire
Must be put out of their misery.

Oy! So much work to be done.

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Dhammapada 284 : So long as the love of man towards women, even the smallest, is not destroyed, so long is his mind in bondage, as the calf that drinks milk is to its mother.

Lamp on Impermenance

People all fiendishly horde their pleasures
And so like fools joyfully tie their own noose.

The way of the world is downward –
Like water flows off a mountain.

Coming into birth we’ve entered the river of impermanence,
flowing always into the ocean of death.

Holding on is absolute illusion …
there’s nothing to hold onto.

Simply Relativity

People all love to built eachother up
And when they fall are quick to blame the other.

Yet in the moment of death
There is nothing to hold on to –

Like waves on the ocean
Death breaks us on the shores of eternity.

Sea spray and dust
Is all that will come of our dreams-
And even that evaporates.

The higher you go the lower you fall.
The more you want the less you get.

Its simply relativity.

Every Desire is a Parasite

Every desire is a parasite –
Feasting on my my life blood.

Hidden in the veins of my consciousness
They scurry around like reptillian insects
In and out of sight – elusive yet dense and slimy.

The body is infested with this filth.
The very sight of them is trecherous,
Like roaches slithering within
Sucking on my veins.

Every time I feed it attention
Every time I allow it change my course of action
The desire grows
And I host the demons in my own home.

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Meta Notes

• awareness inhabits infinite realms, illuminating the form of contrasting vibrations.

• this plane is grossly projected- a manifestation, as all are, conditioned and so perceptable by diverse paradigms.

• beings are manifested by awareness interacting, creating consciousness

• consciousness is formed by aware beings identified with a plane, propogating awarness of that space and interactively culture it’s form.

• threads of awareness are conditioned by the contrast in vibrations upon which they balance

• all threads are an expression of one center.

• each thread is a projection of the same center, it’s seperations only hallucinated in the space in which it manifests.

• visualizing, cultured pathways to insight, deities, imagining them naturally manifests their qualities

• I is a vast web of interconnected : ness, lacking any inherant existance. even the hallucination of it’s seperation is a complex web of inhereted thoughts and social memes

• assuming a system to be inherant is to be funamendally conditioned by it

• conditioned by, and so in bondage to it- through presumtion or aversion.

• mere knowledge of this is also bondage to it,

• yet realization in the fabric of existance, down into every thought, and motion, mind and body, is to be free of it. it at this stage inherets nothing at all, in the insight of it’s intimate interdependance on other beings which share the same eternal center.

• the paradigm of a being’s [art] expression and the effects of it’s projection upon the world’s psyche generates waves and a form of awareness that is bound by it’s source of emmission [the creator]. as a light being projecting above the mind of it’s creator, the thread of awareness of it’s creator has pathways to inhabit the emminating waves and the form of [if it balances in astral space after death] that being, absorbing tendrils of perception into all the minds it has effected through the chains of it’s karma.

Suffering

Just as when you touch steam you feel heat
and when you touch ice you feel cold.

Know that when you come in contact with sombody who is suffering
you will feel suffering of the same nature that they feel. You will feel suffering arising out of compassion or protection. The protective mind will use cunning defence mechanism which it has learned from the world. (defense mechanism) Conditioned patterns of dualistic judgment propogate through eye contact, words, any for of energy transfer when you embrace sombody with joy it will enter them, and when they love you, you will feel it. sarcasm as a means of expressing repressed content/contempt … as expressed repression Disreguard the words and feel the vibe

— sacrificing freedom- the defensive mind is burned by other’s suffering. it will carry it around like a flaming stick and burn others… burdened by the compassionate mind learns from the suffering. healing itself, and others enlightened by suffering abiding the center the guity mind imposes guilt.. the shamful shame. The self conscious with judgment